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Building floors
Feb. 15th, 2011 04:35 pmI think I've finally found a good combination of antidepressants. It's usually a little hard to tell, but there's definitely a floor now.
Without antidepressants, there seems to be a bottomless pit in my mind - my mood can just go down, and down, and further down. And there's a feedback loop, almost a kind of gravity, as it picks up momentum quite easily.
Antidepressants set up a floor across that pit, some way down. My mood can drop, but it can only go so far before something prevents it from going past a certain point. And my mood can spend a long time crawling around at the lowest possible point allowed, and it can get through the floor if I spend a lot of time dwelling on things, but once my mind has any kind of distraction, the floor comes back.
It doesn't make me feel better, not really. Not even a little. It just stops the freefall.
My roommate has cable TV. My recommendation to anybody who suffers from depression: don't watch TV. At all. Doesn't matter whether it's a comedy or not, it doesn't help at all. And if anyone ever suggests you watch the recent HBO movie "Sunset Limited," don't. TV won't help your outlook, but it certainly can hurt it.
Without antidepressants, there seems to be a bottomless pit in my mind - my mood can just go down, and down, and further down. And there's a feedback loop, almost a kind of gravity, as it picks up momentum quite easily.
Antidepressants set up a floor across that pit, some way down. My mood can drop, but it can only go so far before something prevents it from going past a certain point. And my mood can spend a long time crawling around at the lowest possible point allowed, and it can get through the floor if I spend a lot of time dwelling on things, but once my mind has any kind of distraction, the floor comes back.
It doesn't make me feel better, not really. Not even a little. It just stops the freefall.
My roommate has cable TV. My recommendation to anybody who suffers from depression: don't watch TV. At all. Doesn't matter whether it's a comedy or not, it doesn't help at all. And if anyone ever suggests you watch the recent HBO movie "Sunset Limited," don't. TV won't help your outlook, but it certainly can hurt it.
